You and me.

You completely consume me...
And I love you.
But after all the trouble I caused for you.
Are your promises still true??
Do you still think of me??
I would do anything to have you here with me.
But it will never happen.
I will never have my chance.
Our perfect plans will never play out.
And its all because of me.
Because I decided to do what I knew was wrong.
It's because I felt too guilty to keep it to myself.
I just had to confess to someone.
And that someone was rather alarmed.
I was so stupid.
If I could of only shut my mouth...
I could still feel like I was part of you.
Like I meant something to you.
Like I used to.
We should have waited.
Until it was right.
The right time under the right circumstances.
But I just had to rush.
And now...
I'm in a world of pain.
I can't even communicate with you.
And at this point..
I'm desperate for you.
You frequent my mind a lot more than you should.
It's been so long...Why can't I just forget??
But you just have to be..
Every errant thought in my mind.
I can't stand this anymore.
I am so sick of being looked down upon because of how I chose to express what i felt...what i feel.
It's not just between you and me anymore.
And now..
I feel like nothing.
Nothing to you.
Nothing to the world.
At least in the moments I shared with you....
I felt like something..
to you.