Now...

I rejoice in your return.
After all this time apart.
You still care.
But I'm not sure I can give you my heart this time...
because last time...
HURT.
I never stopped
thinking of you...
caring...
And I see through your mistakes,
because I understand I wasn't around for a while.
I couldn't expect you to wait.
Although that would have been amazing.
So significant.
I know now its impossible.
Not the actually happening.
Just the meaning behind it.
The significance of it to you.
I hope we can make up for what we've lost.
But how can I be sure..
this is real??
When so many times before..
lies disguised as the truth.
And how can I sacrifice everything for you.
I'm positive of my feelings.
But I can't identify the credibility of yours.
I want to believe you have faith in us.
But I can't.
Because I'm not sure..
Don't tell me how you feel.
Please show me...I've lost my faith in words.
Sounds you may feel obligated to shape into words and sentences and nights of conversation.
But am I a fool??
For you.
Am I being fooled??
I can't tell if what I'm seeing is real.
I've lost my faith in that too.
I fear my vision is clouded with my desire to see something that may not exist.
But if only a glimpse of what you see...in us.
If our views are synchronized...
I can be positive of our fate.